21 8 / 2014
a shooting star is actually someone driving off rainbow road
21 8 / 2014
My dad thinks that me being attracted to white guys is just a phase
I’ll grow out of..
30 7 / 2014
sorry for the no updating for a while. been busy… here is what I’ve been eating since the 21…
22 7 / 2014
17 7 / 2014
I’m still having a hard time with everything. I think this depression thing is getting to me along with a whole bunch of other things that dont have to do with exercise feel like they are building up. I havent exercised in quite a while and feel crappy either way. I wasnt feeling better even after exercise.. Right now I’m going to focus on eating healthy since I was having trouble with that too lately. I’m paying off bills and once my credit card is payed off I’m thinking of joining a gym again. Its slightly more expensive but since its really close to home and sort of there on my way to and from work (also open earlier and later) I think the extra dollars would be worth it in the end. I gotta try and keep going even if I seem to have this giant moat, castle and brick wall infront of me. Sorry I havent been updating much I’ll try once I get hold of things a bit more. I”m just letting you guys know where I’m at.
09 7 / 2014
I’ve been feeling depressed lately having a hard time keeping up with the exercise. I feel better afterwards every time but I don’t always want to do it and will fight with doing it. I recently started Insanity again as of last Friday. I haven’t missed a day but its been really hard.
I’m in class right now and I haven’t done my exercise despite not having work in the morning. I plan on doing it before I have dinner when I get home. I know I wouldn’t be doing so well if it wasn’t for my boyfriend. I probably would have given up a long time ago. I’m not doing it for him just to be clear it is for me. But sometimes I don’t care about myself enough to keep doing it but he does. He dosnt like seeing me down and depressed because I’m not happy with who I am. Working out does make me feel better bt sometimes its hard to remember.